the habit 2

still wondering how it was possible to keep a faithful diary then. better able to maintain consistency of habit? more pressing a need to espouse and verbalise? less time of space or worse, space of mind to spare now?

i had hoped to be regular about this. might have to rely on either momentum or stubborn pride just to keep at it.

i take comfort that oscaraustin isn't doing that much better either.

the habit

toying with the idea of sustaining a daily blog entry.

the diary used to be unfailing, desired, necessary - whether narcissistic, meditative or rigorous. anal persistence. a psychoanalytic attempt to impose a sense of structure or bring to closure a day's events. such questionable motivation surely.

am completely convinced that i don't have such current perseverance.

diary

used to keep a diary once, for the longest time. significantly during the stretches when i had no permanent committments. more of those years than those with. so, volumes.

it had all the basics - an event chronicle, annotated with authorial intrusion, usually feelings. some wallowing. some soul-searching. took up at least half an hour a day. do the maths.

that's a lot of life spent writing it all down.

starting up

i've succumbed. so here we go...